Calling all gamers

I havn't actually had a blog that had anything to do with gaming, well, some things might of been said here and there, but nothing actually focused around gaming itself.

Seing as I'm a keen gamer, I might make a seperate blog just for gaming shit. But yeah, I was gonna include this in my last post but realised it would of gone on for ages!

I'm really interested in the Wii, someone buy me one yeah? The new Resident Evil game looks fucking amazing. And they're getting their own Silent Hill game, jealous. But I know I won't play it much, seing as its more of a "family" console, and its mainly good for party games. I'm sure if I bought one and chipped it it would be more efficent for my needs though, right?

What else is there to say... Oh, more about gaming ofcourse! Haha, I've been whoring the UFC 2009 demo since it came out on marketplace. And my god, what a game. I'm actually in love with it, the only bad thing is, Chuck Liddell is SO much better than Shogun Rua in the demo, Chucks knockout power is insane, he once knocked me out in 7 seconds haha, the fastest I've knocked out Shogun with him was 13 seconds. Rididididiculous. I'm pretty sure I'm just gonna choose Rampage Jackson everytime I play it when I manage to get the retail version. 

Oooft, and theres a teaser for Dead Rising 2 lurking around on the internet, yum! You can get a dirt bike with chainsaws attached to the handlebars, impractible, but still rather entertaining. Uhh, and Assassins Creed 2 teaser, but thats been out for a while and it really is nothing, just hinting what might be in AC2. Anddd Bioshock 2 teaser, I'm still yet to finish Bioshock though haha. What else is there? Tekken 6! Fuck yeah, return of the iron fist tournament. Ummm... I actually can't think of anything else yet, haha. So yeah, thats all for now. I'll probably edit it later.

Wake up, dreamer

What you do will come back to you, hold your mouth

Dizzee Rascal is the greatest, ever.

My six day weekend starts today! Haha, I get Tuesdays and Thursdays off college, and we're not in on Friday due to some meeting the teachers have to attend, and its bank holiday on Monday, so yeah, I'm pretty pleased.

Sorry for not updating this daily, but I'm guessing quite a few people have stopped reading this so theres no need to update you on my daily happenings. 

We started building our computers in college! We're the first class that Trev has on Mondays, and there was 15 motherboards delivered, and theres about 13 people in our class, perfect! So there we are, preparing our motherboards, installing RAM modules and the CPU incl. heatsink. Then the class finished, we took a peak into the class later, and saw the other students on this course doing work on computers, bwahaha sucks to be them. But they ripped us off, it cost us £400 to build this computer, they took the money in September and we've only started building this computer on Monday... Thats pisstake numero uno. The second one is me and Alex were doing some research on our components, the motherboard, RAM, CPU and GFX Card comes up to about £265 so far. All we've got left is the PSU, keyboard, mouse, case, and thats about it I think. And theres no way that can come up to another £135. 

I started training for the marathon on Monday, I ran 1.10 miles in 11 minutes, which isn't bad for me I guess, seing as I had severe asthma as a kid, which hasn't dissapeared yet, and I'm considered as a "smoker", which is stupid imo, its not like I smoke 40 a day, idiots, plus I'm just generally lazy and out of shape. I missed yesterdays run as my thighs were just so painfully sore it was insane. But I'll be running tomorrow, which I'm looking forward to. I don't quite understand why I'm looking forward to running haha.

It's my nans birthday today! Can't say I know how old she is though, I've got to go to Marks and Spencers and buy her some flowers, awwh.

I'm guessing thats all for now, I will make an effort to update it regularly, its just that I've recently moved to Google Chrome as my default browser, and lost all the saved passwords, bookmarks, etc. Plus my life is generally boring anyway.

Update: Actually, I've got quite a bit more to say, so you're not off the hook yet. Unless I'm just hideously boring that you've given up reading this already. 

I've been listening to Dizzee Rascal shit loads since we saw him at Reading 08, I've always found him to be amazing and an incredible influence, but I've never spent hours on end listening to him, which I have done alot recently, lovely. 

Oh, someone pissed me off yesterday, and its okay to talk about it cause she won't read this, bwahaha. Right, I've posted blogs about her before but this is really stupid. Say you're with someone, and they keep "messing you around", you wouldn't stay with them right? Or maybe you're one of the billions of girls who love going for the boy who messes you about. But yeah, she breaks up with him, for a bit, gets back with him for a day, breaks up again. Then she's getting what I would call "close" with me, which I found quite funny really, cause the next day she gets back with him. NICE ONE BRUVVAAA. Fuck you.

Aint no love ting here, its just one big cycle here, aint no friendship here, its just one big cycle here. Round round round we go, round round round we go, round round round we go, if you love me let me know.

I actually love Dizzee Rascals lyrical talent. He speaks so much truth, like Lupe Fiasco, but more grimey. 

Oh I lost my Sennheiser CX 300 headphones, well I say lost, but I'm pretty sure they're in my room, just misplaced. That sucks. They're on Play.com for £15, but I'm never going with them again since they never delivered my Street Fighter IV, fuckers. 

I think thats about it now, you can go, take care.

I miss drama!

I've been talking to Hurley on Facebook about theater, and its just flooding back so many memories of school. Of going to Pineapple studios in Summer, going to the theater & watching performances, even if they were like 4 hours long, I still enjoyed every minute of it. It actually made me realise how much I miss acting! Fuck, why did I get so attracted towards computers? God.

Oh and I've decided that I'm gonna run a marathon, next year. Training starts soon, theres a 90% chance that I'll give up on that dream, but theres always that 10% chance! The only reason I want to do it is becuase its an amazing personal achievement. And its a good way to get into shape!

I've also decided what I want to do with my hair. I'm gonna keep it like this until late this year, or early next year, then I'm getting dreadlocks. Then when I get bored of them, I'm getting a high top. Yup. A high top. Gonna start off Tempz style, then grow it to Christopher "Kid" Reid style, the way he had it in House Party 2. Believe me, I will get this done. 

I'm off to watch South Park in bed and fall asleep, its ridiculously early for me! Night.

Jah Rastafari!

Weathers lush! Which means I'm in a really good mood. And my hayfever tablets are holding out for now, I'm starting to use tissues to store my mucus now though, which isn't good, oh well, at least the tablets. it fully lasted for a good 6-7 hours.

I'd actually like to know if anybody reads my blogs, I know a few selected people who do, but there must be some lurkers out there. The only reason I want to know this is to set up an AdSense account, and make a few pennies while you're browsing through my blog. All you have to do is click a link then close it after it loads, nothing long. So yeah, if you do actually read this, tell me please.

Today was nice, Elliot was aching after his "intense" hour and fourty five minute workout yesterday at the gym, so we physically bullied most of his muscles, haha. And we had a talk about stereotypes in our group tutorial today (which is the most pointless lesson ever), which was quite humourous. I thought I spelt that wrong then, but realised that Americunts spell humour without the added u, idiots. They say they speak English but they alter our spellings, bastards!

I have nothing to look forward to tonight, haha. Theres a party going on that I found out about, but its for the year lower than me, so it wont feel like the right crowd. I probably wont attend that. Sucks to be them.

STOP! Hammer time. I've been listening to dubstep for the past half an hour, making most items in my room shake seing as nobodys home, yay! The c, the a, the s the p the a. The r, the u, the s the k the o. Yeaaaah, I'm gonna listen to Fabriclive 37 mixed by Caspa & Rusko until my mum gets back, the album should finish by then anyway. I still havnt copped Caspa's album yet (Everybody's Talking, Nobody's Listening), shameful!

When I got to the Waltham Cross bus station I bought a raspberry slushi, but it tasted of bad breath, sadface. Thats it for nowww, enjoy your day.

Mic check one, two

Alot of things happened this week so far, long blog post is long.

I remember when I was a kid, I used to HATE travelling to London on the tube. There used to be so much shit going wrong with the tubes, the media scared me off by telling me about crashes, fatalaties, etc. on the tube. And what made it worse was the 7/7 bombings, seing as that was two weeks before my birthday. Then, on my birthday (21/7) there was failed bombings. I got over it like half a month after the bombings, and now I love the tube. Thats got nothing to do with anything I thought I'd just tell you, haha.

Currently I'm wearing a bandana as a headband, it has ying and yang signs on it, ha :) I remember buying this from St Albans market about 5 years back. I miss Harpenden so much, don't get me wrong, I love my friends and stuff in Enfield, but honestly, if we didn't move back to Enfield I would be going off to uni by now. I loved that school so much, it was the best school, ever. I was an A* student in year 7, and it would of continued like that, I was finally getting over my anger issues, getting out of the house more, making new friends, and not being socially awkward. But I came to Enfield, and lost it all , I'm still socially awkward, I get out alot more than I used to, and my anger issues have pretty much dissapeared, I've been described as down to earth, so yeah, I'm guessing they have. But I flopped school, and a few colleges, I'm determined to finish this one, I want to prove something, and I want to do another course, showing that I can finish a course will get my foot in the door to most places saying I can achieve something if I keep my head in the game.

My mum woke me up at about 7 this morning, before she left the house. It felt like she was kneeling down my bedside rubbing my back, it woke me up, then I thought I heard something about her being pregnant, so I said "Mum?" and she went "Shh, cya Josh.", I'm not sure if I dreamt it, but I know it woke me up for like 20 seconds before I fell asleep again. Plus its highly improbable that shes pregnant, shes like 50. Bless her.

Honestly, I think I think too much. Its not healthy to think as much as I do. My head gets invaded by every little thought, and I constantly narrorate my life like J.D does from Scrubs. I'm getting used to it now, I used to hate it, it annoyed me so much. And the worst thing is when I keep repeating the same thought, and it just circles in my head for 5 minutes straight, it really does make me feel suicidal.

I saw the most beautiful girl ever the other day, I was on the bus, going home, and she got on outside Argos/Lidl in Enfield Town, she sat infront of me. But ofcourse I'm still a fucking pussy and couldn't say anything. But no, seriously, she was insanely gorgeous, she was ginger, but not like a obvious ginger like Paul Scholes, it was a subtle ginger. She was wearing glasses, and had that geeky look about her, which I fall for in any girl. And she smelt of... heaven? I'm guessing thats the most appropriate word to put there.

Yesterday I was in town park, and guess who I saw, just happily walking across the field. Akala. Yup, Akala was in Enfield Town Park, with some other guy who had sick dreadlocks. I thought it was him originally, then his Illa State Records tshirt with the British flag in Jamaican colours made me 100% sure. So I was sitting there, with Sammi and Ellie, then I said "Oh thats Akala", shouted out "AKALA!", he just went "Whats goin' on man, you cool?" so I replied "Yeah, why're you in Enfield?", he answered "'cause my cousins in the park". And that was that, we said our goodbyes, I should of got a picture with him, but barely anybody knows who he is, which is a shame, hes seriously talented, and one of the MC's that got me interested into Rap/Grime.

Ohh, and yesterday was really nice! First of all I met up with Sammi and Ellie, then called Darron to see what he was doing, chilled over the town park, met Akala, then saw Painter, Ant and Dan, chilled with them for a bit, then a few others came over, sat with them for a bit, Darron got there, Sammi and Ellie left, then the other crowd went to get something to eat, me, Saleem and Darron jammed in the park, puff puff pass. Then me and Darron went to Toms house and jammed there for the rest of the night.

I've only got one day left of college this week, and thats tomorrow. I've still got to do quite a bit of coursework to keep myself in college, some of which I'll do today. But its been good so far, weathers been lovely, and stuff.

Hmm, thats about it I guess. I'll leave you with my ying and yang headbandana, take care.


You can tell I'm ridiculously bored :)!

Update: My mums not pregnant! Yay.

Its been a while...

I havn't updated my blog in 9 days, I've got no idea why...

Nothing exciting has happened anyway haha. I got my new phone! The G1, its amazing, I actually love it. The only bad thing is the wank battery life. It goes flat waaay too quickly, its not gonna last me through Reading Fest, don't think I'll even bring it to Reading Fest, cause it'll get fucked on the first day.

I need a job, in all honesty, I havn't been looking. I'm just too lazy. Aaand I've recently decided that I'm gonna get into design, maybe. I'm realllly interested in computer aided design, and video editing. I might start editing again soon, when I get my new computer, which I should be building soon, yay! I'm not even fussed about the specs, cause I won't be gaming on it much, I've sorta fallen away from that, sadface.

Hmm... I've been writing alot recently, and some of its OK I guess. But its all depressing shit haha, I'm working on something now which is about a guy who used to get abused by his parents so he ran away from home. Ofcourse it ends with him getting killed.

I've had this thing open for the last hour and havn't added anything to it haha, the thing I was writing in the past paragraph is now finished, roughly. I need a chorus or something I guess. But yeaaaah.

I might start doing something productive with my life this year. Still got 8 months (roughly) to go until 2010. Then another 2 years after that, the worlds supposed to end, haha. They said that about Y2K, The LHC, and many other things though. So don't get your hopes up kids.

Stay cool.

Who are you?

I'm Joshua James Whittle. And I'm an individual, I stand on my own two feet. I dress how the fuck I want, and I'm afraid of spiders. I don't try to be original, I couldn't give a fuck what you think of me, the amount of stares I get on the street is unreal, I don't understand why people glare at me, but I couldn't care less, it doesn't phase me.

I watched Higher Learning last night, like I said I would. Its fucking amazing, one of the best films I've seen, ever. Highly recommended. Tonight I'm gonna watch Boyz N The Hood, and Jacob's Ladder. I've havn't seen either before, but they're both meant to be good.

My desk broke yesterday, and I've gotta rest the part that holds my mouse and keyboard on my lap, its so awkward haha, I need a new desk, badly. And a bed, I've had this desk for about 10 years, and my bed for god knows how long, but it was the first (and only) bed I've had since I stopped sleeping in a crib.

I don't have much to say today, but I'm in a happy mood. Byeeeee!

Happy easter!

Its now officially easter, so I could grab an egg and chow down, but that would be pointless and unhealthy seing as its 00.42... My mum explained to me what easter had to do with Christianity; nothing. Its all to do with the pagan holidays or something, Christianity just stole most of it, there is a whole explanation for it, I just cant remember it.

I just watched Tremors 3: Back To Perfection. It was fucking awful, so so so bad, I remember when I was a kid, me and Tom were flipping through some channels at like 2 a.m. and stumbled across Tremors, which was such a good movie when we were kids. The first and original film still has that factor but the sequals ruined it, so much.

Ohh, and seing as its easter, there was a Doctor Who special on tonight, which was amazingly good, I'm a Doctor Who fan, a big one. I don't collect all the toys or collectables or whatever, but thats not the point. What is the point is that I've followed the whole thing since it got re-released in 2005, and watched some of the old ones from the 50's-80's, which arent as good as the recent ones in my opinion. I was happy to see that Michelle Ryan was in it, Enfield gally gettin' it done. And shes rather attractive. Oh, and Posh Kenneth from Skins was in it, I can't remember his name, its something african. Aaaand, Lee Evans, haha, I love him, he's hilarious. I remember discovering him when I was 6, my parents bought me Mousehunt on VHS, haha, such a memorable film, I must of watched it over a hundred times, no joke. I used to watch videos all the time when I was a kid, favourites being George of the Jungle ('cause my dads called George), Land Before Time, and some others that I can't remember right now.

I also watched Robin Hood today, which was good, as always. Robin Hood never seems to fail me, it was well sad though. I was upset about Brother Tuck getting captured, he looked so sad. Then Much got turned down by Kate, and they almost got burnt alive! But ofcourse, Robin escaped, 'cause hes such a goon!

Finally; Red Dwarf's back. But is it for the better? I got home late last night, and started watching it on Dave Ja Vu, at like 1 a.m. or something, I wasn't impressed by it, it didn't seem the same. It seems too real now, theres no audience laughter, which genuinely makes it funnier. Cat's still hilarious, as always, I've love Cat, so much. He's so vain, and funny, haha. But the story line is ridiculous. They get sent to Earth, and find out that they're not real, they're characters in a TV show, and they're trying to find out what happens next. Its so far fetched, even though most of the Red Dwarf episodes are insanely far fetched, this is trying to be realistic, from what I gathered anyway. Its not working for me, so far. Only two episodes to go anyway.

This is easily the longest blog post I've ever done. The Machinist is on now, ooft, Christian Bale But I'm off to watch Higher Learning, which I've been meaning to watch for a while now. Happy easter fans!

Yeaaah

I'm tired as fuck, and I don't know why, I had more than 10 hours sleep, strange. I'm always tired though, and I've got no idea why. I've been thinking alot over the last week, and I seriously need to make something out of my life, I'm gonna start with my college course, when I started I wasn't really bothered with my results, I can easily get a pass, but I wanna shoot for a merit, might aswell try, I've got a month or so to get all my coursework in order. Might aswell start today.

Hope you're enjoying your holidays so far.

Listen up children!

I've got over my writers block, yes yes I have. And I've jotted down quite a few rhymes, which are pretty mediocre, but I couldn't care less, cause none of my material is anything better than average.

I've also come to the conclusion that I need to try harder in life. Hmm, I told Harry this is gonna be a happier post than most of my others, but it really wont be haha.

I'm also gonna make this blog look nicer, even if I have to resort to Beckys html geekyness, hmm. Oh, I wanna watch Higher Learning, some film from the '90s about a school with different races in, it looks really interesting, I'm probably gonna watch it after I'm done with this.

Might aswell spill my lyrical ideas here right now. Theyre in different text documents so I'll seperate them with a few paragraphs.

First;
Theres a story to tell
For every soul in hell
Most of them deserve it
Even if they did well

Let me tell you a story about a lonely kid
He had this girls face engraved under his eyelids
He'd always see her when he closed his eyes
But she soon filled his thoughts with awful lies
This kid always used to think it was love
Because she was the only one he used to think of
She never left this boys train of thought
Its a real shame that she got caught
Cheating isn't the best thing to do
You kiss, you suck, and then you screw
Unluckily, he found out the hard way
Found them together, with nothing to say
Her parents let him in, she didn't know
As he slowly watched the boys eyes grow
She got on her knees, and pulled down his jeans
Thats when the kid started to scream


Theres a story to tell
For every soul in hell
Most of them deserve it
Even if they did well


He choked on his own tears on the way home
Them two left alone, the girl starts to moan
He gets home, and puts his bags on the floor
Broken hearted by the girl that he adores
He had plans for them, when they got older
Every second that goes past, his heart gets colder
The news station is on in the background
As he makes his way upstairs without a sound
Mum and dad don't know that he's home
He lays on his bed and turns off his phone
His pillows soon get filled with tears
Walked this earth for seventeen years
He's grown sick and tired off it all
Begins listening to blessthefall


Theres a story to tell
For every soul in hell
Most of them deserve it
Even if they did well

I need to add a last verse to this.

Second;
Through lipstick stained teeth, she smiled at me
Never knew I could be bought so easily
I smirked back, without any remorse
She got a little closer and my voice grew hoarse
Whispered in my ear the only words I wanna hear
Her smile quickly changed to a sinister sneer
Jotted down her number and name
From that moment, nothing has ever seemed the same

Third;
Sick and tired of losing bets
And waking up in cold sweats
I'm not gonna fall in love
Just to fall to the ground
Restless spirits float above
Without making a single sound



Yeah thats all I've got so far, I'm probably gonna finish each of them, they've all got a story to tell. Bye!

Fuck off, please

I might be an idiot and read the signals wrong, but honestly, you led me on. Now you're drunk and acting like I'm the bad one? Well, whats been dones been done. I don't regret anything I said, fuck this shit, I'm off to bed.

I honestly didn't intend any of that to rhyme, it just did... Night.

I grew up a fuckin' screwup

Today was crap. I fucked something up, I think, idk. I probably did, I have a tendancy to fuck things up. Oh welllll, lifes a bitch, etc. I've got two weeks off starting tomorrow, and I intend to start it off by sleeping all of tomorrow away seing as my plans have probably dissapeared anyway. Gooood job Josh. I think I'm gonna write something for 15 minutes then fall asleep, night!

Yay!

I finished Watchmen yesterday :) took me a while, haha, but then again I read it every other day for like 40 minutes. My mate was telling me that the ending was shit, it really wasn't, the ending was so unexpected, which made it so much better.

Oh, and I watched The Children last night, avoid avoid avoid. It was shit, yet another failure for British horror... I didn't even know how the children got infected, or what they were infected with. It was pretty brutal though, I love gory films, but you really don't wanna waste your time watching this bullshit, I'd give it a 2/10, it got 1 mark for having attractive people in it, and another for being gory. Other than that its fucking awful.

I've been listening to Atmosphere alot recently, since Mike introduced me to his music, and he's inspired me to start writing, I've jotted down a few ideas, I'll finish something off in Easter, I'm actually gonna put thought & effort into something, rather than just take 10 minutes of throwing words together that rhyme. I want this to mean something. Adieu friends.

Morning slackers

I've had 4 hours sleep, woke up to a text saying we don't have college, then clocked its April fools, fuck off. We saw The Haunting In Conneticut last night, its an alright film, I'd recommend it if you want a quick scare, it does have a LOT of jumpy bits, yet failed to make me jump, suprise suprise, I'm rock 'ard, innit. I reallyreallyreally wanna see Lesbian Vampire Killers, hmph. I woke up this morning making up lyrics, which made me realise I havn't written anything in ages, I think I'm gonna start writing again. Also, whoever keeps hovering over the stereotypical rap genre, bling, bitches, blunts, etc. should gtfo... Theres so many good rappers that talk about real stuff, most rappers tell stories anyway, which I think is really good. Stop hatin' playa! Gonna get ready for college now, bye.