Mic check one, two

Alot of things happened this week so far, long blog post is long.

I remember when I was a kid, I used to HATE travelling to London on the tube. There used to be so much shit going wrong with the tubes, the media scared me off by telling me about crashes, fatalaties, etc. on the tube. And what made it worse was the 7/7 bombings, seing as that was two weeks before my birthday. Then, on my birthday (21/7) there was failed bombings. I got over it like half a month after the bombings, and now I love the tube. Thats got nothing to do with anything I thought I'd just tell you, haha.

Currently I'm wearing a bandana as a headband, it has ying and yang signs on it, ha :) I remember buying this from St Albans market about 5 years back. I miss Harpenden so much, don't get me wrong, I love my friends and stuff in Enfield, but honestly, if we didn't move back to Enfield I would be going off to uni by now. I loved that school so much, it was the best school, ever. I was an A* student in year 7, and it would of continued like that, I was finally getting over my anger issues, getting out of the house more, making new friends, and not being socially awkward. But I came to Enfield, and lost it all , I'm still socially awkward, I get out alot more than I used to, and my anger issues have pretty much dissapeared, I've been described as down to earth, so yeah, I'm guessing they have. But I flopped school, and a few colleges, I'm determined to finish this one, I want to prove something, and I want to do another course, showing that I can finish a course will get my foot in the door to most places saying I can achieve something if I keep my head in the game.

My mum woke me up at about 7 this morning, before she left the house. It felt like she was kneeling down my bedside rubbing my back, it woke me up, then I thought I heard something about her being pregnant, so I said "Mum?" and she went "Shh, cya Josh.", I'm not sure if I dreamt it, but I know it woke me up for like 20 seconds before I fell asleep again. Plus its highly improbable that shes pregnant, shes like 50. Bless her.

Honestly, I think I think too much. Its not healthy to think as much as I do. My head gets invaded by every little thought, and I constantly narrorate my life like J.D does from Scrubs. I'm getting used to it now, I used to hate it, it annoyed me so much. And the worst thing is when I keep repeating the same thought, and it just circles in my head for 5 minutes straight, it really does make me feel suicidal.

I saw the most beautiful girl ever the other day, I was on the bus, going home, and she got on outside Argos/Lidl in Enfield Town, she sat infront of me. But ofcourse I'm still a fucking pussy and couldn't say anything. But no, seriously, she was insanely gorgeous, she was ginger, but not like a obvious ginger like Paul Scholes, it was a subtle ginger. She was wearing glasses, and had that geeky look about her, which I fall for in any girl. And she smelt of... heaven? I'm guessing thats the most appropriate word to put there.

Yesterday I was in town park, and guess who I saw, just happily walking across the field. Akala. Yup, Akala was in Enfield Town Park, with some other guy who had sick dreadlocks. I thought it was him originally, then his Illa State Records tshirt with the British flag in Jamaican colours made me 100% sure. So I was sitting there, with Sammi and Ellie, then I said "Oh thats Akala", shouted out "AKALA!", he just went "Whats goin' on man, you cool?" so I replied "Yeah, why're you in Enfield?", he answered "'cause my cousins in the park". And that was that, we said our goodbyes, I should of got a picture with him, but barely anybody knows who he is, which is a shame, hes seriously talented, and one of the MC's that got me interested into Rap/Grime.

Ohh, and yesterday was really nice! First of all I met up with Sammi and Ellie, then called Darron to see what he was doing, chilled over the town park, met Akala, then saw Painter, Ant and Dan, chilled with them for a bit, then a few others came over, sat with them for a bit, Darron got there, Sammi and Ellie left, then the other crowd went to get something to eat, me, Saleem and Darron jammed in the park, puff puff pass. Then me and Darron went to Toms house and jammed there for the rest of the night.

I've only got one day left of college this week, and thats tomorrow. I've still got to do quite a bit of coursework to keep myself in college, some of which I'll do today. But its been good so far, weathers been lovely, and stuff.

Hmm, thats about it I guess. I'll leave you with my ying and yang headbandana, take care.


You can tell I'm ridiculously bored :)!

Update: My mums not pregnant! Yay.