Didn't expect that

That hit me like a tonne of bricks, where the fuck did it come from? I was meant to write a blog about stuff thats happened over the past few days 'cause I haven't updated it in a while, but that's just taken my mind of it and put me in a weird mood.

Oh, the above isn't about Michael Jackson, I re-read it and thought people would think I'm talking about MJ, I'm not. I'm gonna use "Girl" instead of her name to protect identities, even though you probably know who I'm talking about anyway if you've been following my blog.

Wait, I'm actually gonna write what I'd say to her;

I've always had my doubts about this little thing going on between us, but you were just so unbelievably nice and lovely that I wouldn't let them bring me down, seeing as the pro's outweighed the con's sooo much. Yeah there was a age gap, but that didn't bother me at all, it bothered my mates more than anyone else, even my Mum didn't care. What I don't understand is how you care about me being 18, when I didn't care about your age? I told you that I'll be going to places you wouldn't get into a week ago, you didn't seem to care, all you wanted was me, clearly things have changed. Not quite sure how things have changed, as I haven't acted any differently to as to how I used to when I first met you, you said I've become meaner than I was before, I haven't. I'm nicer in person than I am behind a keyboard, surely that would of made up for it anyway? Obviously not. I still don't understand how it's over this quick. You didn't even pick up your phone, you probably wasn't near it, but of course I didn't initially think that, seeing as what just happened, but it's alright, I'll get over it. Out of every girl that I've ever met, you've been the only person I was reallllly comfortable around, the only one that I've had the guts to call gorgeous in person, well, there was one other person I've had the guts to call gorgeous, but I wasn't as comfortable around her as I was with you, nowhere near as much. I guess I like you as much as I thought I did, otherwise it wouldn't hurt this much, I'm not sure why it hurts though, we weren't exactly "together" were we? Nope, I'm glad we're not, we wouldn't of lasted that long haha, but if this didn't happen I really reckon we could of, it's not like I'd be the stupid one and cheat on you or anything, I don't have the guts, and I'm too much of a nice guy, I reckon I am anyway, well compared to other guys I'm a fucking God send. I'll leave it here, I can't be fucked talking about anything now.

All that aside: Yesterday was quite nice, just chilling at Scale's with half an O and like 12 other guys, even if it was a massive sausagefest it was still nice.

Anddd, that thing on Wednesday, the Orange thing went well, I'm not actually like one of the main guys, I'm just an extra, like, everyone keeps morphing into eachother, there's quite a few people in it, but I don't care, I got paid £80 for it, £50 of which has already disappeared some how... Right, lets add this up. £20 got lent to darron, leaves me with £60, took £20 to Toms (£40), put £10 in for draw, £10 for food, came home, took out another £20 (£20) 'cause I thought I lost it, I came home with a tenner, so I must of put an extra £10 in for draw or something... Fuck knows. All I know is I'll have £60 by the end of this week, when I should have £100, not quite sure how I've lost £40, I know I haven't had any notes go missing or anything...

Oh, Michael Jackson died if you haven't heard already, personally I'm sick of having texts about him, people spamming their Facebook status' about it (I've honestly seen nothing but R.I.P MJ and stuff along them lives on my news feed since about 11 last night...), the news also needs to jam on this subject, the news at noon on channel 4 had nothing about MJ on it. It's not even been 24 hours since I've heard, and I'm already bored of it. Get over it... Yeah he was a great entertainer and everything, but he was still a weirdo, he hung kids off balconies, and touched children. The pro's and con's of Michael Jackson make my opinion of him neutral, I don't like him nor do I dislike him, he's just some guy that makes music and is extremely popular and talented, he also touched kids and got away with it.

Man I'm hungry.