I wrote something

I haven't written anything in ages, I haven't had any inspiration or the need to. I only write when I'm not happy, probably the reason why I haven't written, because I've been happy for the last few months but whatever. I just finished writing something, keep in mind I did it in like 30 minutes so it's not exactly good, and I haven't reworked it so its half decent, but I don't care, it says how I feel and that's all I wanted to do, I've never written something saying exactly how I feel. Here it is:

We've always taken two steps back and one forward
Every fight we've had has just made it more awkward
We had no intention to take this any further
If we fought anymore it could of ended in murder
You'll never understand how much you really meant
Didn't realise what I had until you went
Its over, for now and eternity
I would of supported you through maternity
You meant a lot, so much its unreal
I've haven't known you long, but you know how I feel
So stop all these negative thoughts
What we had couldn't of been bought
Prostitutes are incapable of love
Me and you, we fit like a glove
But its all over, for good this time
I've never been able to call you mine
And now I've lost my chance, I blew it all
We didn't take any pictures of us for my wall
Thats a good thing, I can do without the memories
Just because you meant so much to me
I need to escape, and get over you
I feel like disappearing into the blue
You thought I didn't fall for you, I obviously did
Just my emotions, well, I kept them hid
I didn't want to seem weak or vulnerable
But now I've lost it all
I wish I had a time machine
You were an absolute queen
I'd change everything that I regret
I hope you know that I can never forget
All the things I put you through, good and bad
Its funny that you were the only good thing I had
Everything happens for a reason I guess
Committing treason was for the best
I never closed my eyes whenever we used to kiss
I never wanted anything to go amiss
It's now set in stone, weapons on the floor
You were the only one that I adored
But now we're through, and there's nothing I can do
I'd just like to let you know that I'll miss you.