Mistakes were made

Ignore that last blog post, everythings back to normal, I doubt anyone read it anyway, just like nobody would read this one, but I don't care, I like writing.

I really need to learn how to use Illustrator, I've jotted down so many ideas for little pieces of work that I wanna do, but idk how to use Illustrator... I'm sure I'll master it sooner or later.

Watched Walk The Line again today, with my Nan, who was singing along underneath her breath and giving me a running commentary, she makes me laugh. When the curtain rose and he stood there infront of a crowd who applauded him and waited for him to start reminded me of drama, when I used to do school plays. Waiting for your cue to walk onto that stage and give the audience what they want, wether it was to make them laugh, or go "aww", I always used to appear calm and collected before I went out there, when inside I was shitting it, walking onto a stage heated up by lights and a hall full of people wasn't exactly the easiest thing to do, remembering the lines were a thousand times easier! But the appreciation you get when you finish, all the applause and cheering, the satisfaction of allllll them months of rehearsals finally over, that made it so worth it.

Ohh, I also saw Year One last night, and yesterday afternoon, it's not good enough to see twice, but I didn't watch it first time around, stupid girl was distracting me, as always. It's a good film, but not as funny as I thought it would be, recommended by yours truly though!

Didn't expect that

That hit me like a tonne of bricks, where the fuck did it come from? I was meant to write a blog about stuff thats happened over the past few days 'cause I haven't updated it in a while, but that's just taken my mind of it and put me in a weird mood.

Oh, the above isn't about Michael Jackson, I re-read it and thought people would think I'm talking about MJ, I'm not. I'm gonna use "Girl" instead of her name to protect identities, even though you probably know who I'm talking about anyway if you've been following my blog.

Wait, I'm actually gonna write what I'd say to her;

I've always had my doubts about this little thing going on between us, but you were just so unbelievably nice and lovely that I wouldn't let them bring me down, seeing as the pro's outweighed the con's sooo much. Yeah there was a age gap, but that didn't bother me at all, it bothered my mates more than anyone else, even my Mum didn't care. What I don't understand is how you care about me being 18, when I didn't care about your age? I told you that I'll be going to places you wouldn't get into a week ago, you didn't seem to care, all you wanted was me, clearly things have changed. Not quite sure how things have changed, as I haven't acted any differently to as to how I used to when I first met you, you said I've become meaner than I was before, I haven't. I'm nicer in person than I am behind a keyboard, surely that would of made up for it anyway? Obviously not. I still don't understand how it's over this quick. You didn't even pick up your phone, you probably wasn't near it, but of course I didn't initially think that, seeing as what just happened, but it's alright, I'll get over it. Out of every girl that I've ever met, you've been the only person I was reallllly comfortable around, the only one that I've had the guts to call gorgeous in person, well, there was one other person I've had the guts to call gorgeous, but I wasn't as comfortable around her as I was with you, nowhere near as much. I guess I like you as much as I thought I did, otherwise it wouldn't hurt this much, I'm not sure why it hurts though, we weren't exactly "together" were we? Nope, I'm glad we're not, we wouldn't of lasted that long haha, but if this didn't happen I really reckon we could of, it's not like I'd be the stupid one and cheat on you or anything, I don't have the guts, and I'm too much of a nice guy, I reckon I am anyway, well compared to other guys I'm a fucking God send. I'll leave it here, I can't be fucked talking about anything now.

All that aside: Yesterday was quite nice, just chilling at Scale's with half an O and like 12 other guys, even if it was a massive sausagefest it was still nice.

Anddd, that thing on Wednesday, the Orange thing went well, I'm not actually like one of the main guys, I'm just an extra, like, everyone keeps morphing into eachother, there's quite a few people in it, but I don't care, I got paid £80 for it, £50 of which has already disappeared some how... Right, lets add this up. £20 got lent to darron, leaves me with £60, took £20 to Toms (£40), put £10 in for draw, £10 for food, came home, took out another £20 (£20) 'cause I thought I lost it, I came home with a tenner, so I must of put an extra £10 in for draw or something... Fuck knows. All I know is I'll have £60 by the end of this week, when I should have £100, not quite sure how I've lost £40, I know I haven't had any notes go missing or anything...

Oh, Michael Jackson died if you haven't heard already, personally I'm sick of having texts about him, people spamming their Facebook status' about it (I've honestly seen nothing but R.I.P MJ and stuff along them lives on my news feed since about 11 last night...), the news also needs to jam on this subject, the news at noon on channel 4 had nothing about MJ on it. It's not even been 24 hours since I've heard, and I'm already bored of it. Get over it... Yeah he was a great entertainer and everything, but he was still a weirdo, he hung kids off balconies, and touched children. The pro's and con's of Michael Jackson make my opinion of him neutral, I don't like him nor do I dislike him, he's just some guy that makes music and is extremely popular and talented, he also touched kids and got away with it.

Man I'm hungry.

Yeah, I'm fucked

I honestly can't believe that I've misplaced my National Insurance Number. Well, I haven't, Mumsie has, she keeps saying that I must of taken it off her, but I know for a fact that I've only seen it once in my life, and that was when it arrived in the post. The day it dropped through my letter box, I opened it, and said "oh, looks like I've got my National Insurance Number", Mum goes "yeah, I think I'll look after that, seeing as I know what you're like and you'll probably lose it", so I know she has it. Thinking about it, I haven't seen it since that day... I've asked for it a few times in the past, but it wasn't really necessary, it was for college and shit, but I need it for tomorrow, otherwise I don't get paid...

Yesterday I made a post saying that I've gotta go into college. I delayed it for as long as I could, rang Kim (tutor) and Freda (attendance) who didn't answer their phones, so I actually had to go there, which was so much effort. I got there, and I didn't even need to go, Kim said I had 2 pieces of coursework left, and I only needed to do 1 to get my diploma, which I already did, and it was handed in, just not updated on the database. So yeah, I've passed my course.

Julias coming round today, I've been up since 7, not because I wanted to be, Mum woke me up and I couldn't get back to sleep. Looking forward to seeing herrr, I'm also looking forward to this job tomorrow, even if I don't get paid for it. I really need to find that card, fuck.

I really need that money, I wanna start skating so bad.

Fuck this shit

I've gotta go to college today, to finish off some work so that I can pass, I thought I already had? Seeing as I've done more work than my mate has and he passed, fuck sake. This is what happens when you celebrate early, right? My Mum woke me up with the amazing news of me having to return to college, she said I can go either today or tomorrow, I said I can't go tomorrow, I'm seeing Julia, she then asked what's more important, I subconciously said Julia, without even thinking about it. In too deep.

Mos Def's new album The Ecstatic is outstanding.

Forgetful little me...

So, yeah, West End Live is today, it was on yesterday aswell, and I forgot all about it. I'm so disappointed in myself, I really wanted to go see it 'cause I haven't been to the theater in AGES, and I miss it so much. Julia said she'll go see Avenue Q with me, she probably won't. Darron said he'll go see it with me ages ago and he still hasn't...

Watched The Hangover on Friday night, was such a funny film, sooo funny, I walked out the cinema with my cheeks aching for laughing too much. I went with Hutley, we bunned a fat spliff after that then called it a night, seeing as we went to the one at 11.15, I ended up getting home at like 3.

I also watched Street Fighter: Legend of Chun-Li on Friday before I went cinema, it was a good film, but I was disappointed that it was made by Capcom, yet it wasn't anything like Street Fighter, there was guns, Bison was blonde, Vega had a silver mask, Gen was young, there's so many faults. But then again it was pre-tournament and just told you about Chun-Li's life.

Last night I went to Darrons, seeing as he had a free yard and I had nothing to do, I played the Wii most of the night with his little brother Paul, it was an alright night, nothing special, at all...

Next week should be fun, I guess. Seeing Julia on Tuesday, got that Orange advert thing on Wednesday, and nothing else planned. Idk why I said next week will be fun when I've got 2 things going on... But it's always nice to see Julia, I guses.

Todays the longest day, it's also Fathers day, and I'm yet to ring him. I wanna go out so bad, but theres nothing to do, apart from West End Live, which I missed... sadface.

Gonna go ring my Dad, cyaaaa.

Here's looking at you, kid.

GUESS WHAT?! I'm gonna be on the telly, yup. Orange picked me for their new advert, I think I told you guys before, but I wasn't 100% sure as they kept dodging my e-mails asking what's going on with it. I recieved a phone call like 15 minutes ago, and a text at 12 saying that I've got it, I've gotta be somewhere at 11.30 on Wednesday, I'm so happy.

The thing is, I know I'm gonna spunk the £80 from this job on something straight away, I wanna go NASS fest, but it's near Bristol and I don't have any money to get there and wasted. Darron wants me to buy a skateboard, which I want too, I just don't wanna get a shit board, and I can't save for shit. The probability of me buying a new graphics card is bigger than the probability of me buying a ticket to NASS festival or a new board.

Rumour has it that I've passed my college course aswell, well, Kingsley has, and he missed out a whole unit of work, when I forgot a few assignments, so I should of passed too, hopefully I have. Mum said ages ago she'll give me £500 if I get a distinction, which I haven't got, 'cause I didn't try for it, I wanted to go for a merit, but not from the beginning, and my teacher said he wouldn't let me, so I stayed at a pass. I might try and persuade my Mum into buying me an iPod or a board for a reward, hehhh.

Saw my Dad yesterday, for like 3 minutes, but it was still nice. That's allllll, hope you're well and stuff.

Huh

My life's boring as fuck, reason why I haven't blogged recently, sorry.

Take Me To The Hospital

I've been listening to a lot of The Prodigy recently, probably because Reading's in like less than 80 days. Yeaaaah!

I woke up to a phone call from Elliot saying that Kim (our tutor) won't let us send in any more coursework, I've done all of it but one assignment, 'cause I fell asleep before attempting the last piece, fuck sake. So I might fail, just 'cause I missed out one piece of coursework, if I do, I'm gonna hate myself so much, that's just another year wasted.

Jessie also informed me that most of my blogs are about games, which they are, aha. Talking about games, as soon as I got off the phone I loaded up Uncharted and started making my way towards the finale, finished it about 20 minutes ago, it's such an amazingly good game, everything feels like a movie, and theres not one thing wrong with it.

I also got my hands on Prototype yesterday, wow. It blew my mind, the game is fucking epic. Gonna go play more of it in a bit.

Time for a bit of Team Fortress 2, cyuh.

I'm so baked

I'm so fucking high right now. On the way home, I got chased by a fox. I'm not scared of foxes or anything but I've never ran so fast in my life. As I left Darron a fox started following me, so I walked a little bit faster, then I hit the end of the road and saw it was behind me, so I jogged away, it kept up with me all the way, then I sprinted into the road and down a few roads, I outran it, I think. Well, I lost it at least.

I'm gonna watch a film in bed, I'm downloading Prototype, I wanna stay up and play it but I've got college in the morning :( sad times, night people.

Such a miserable day

Such a good mood. I noticed I was a lot more talkative yesterday at my Nans, I don't really speak unless spoken to when I'm at my Nans, but I found myself sparking conversation quite frequently, it was probably 'cause I was in a really good mood, and there's someone to blame for that.

I'm gonna put a pin in that, and leave it there for a little bit. I know you're gagging for me to tell you about who put me in a good mood, but you'll have to wait, there's more important stuff to talk about.

I watched Bolt on Saturday, it's such a good film! It's sosososo cute, I aww'd several times at it, it's quite sad aswell, awwww, bless him. I also watched Friday the 13th 2009 yesterday, which was suprisingly good, had two sex scenes, and everyone knows that sex leads to death in a horror film, but there was no unexpected deaths, you could see them all coming, and they did stupid stuff. Like, if you had a gun, you wouldn't run away from your mates would you? No, you'd stay with them, idiot.

I got up at 7.30 today, then realised there's no point getting up, 'cause I'd just end up watching television, and seeing as only Channel 4 shows good stuff, well, they did, Big Brother's taking over now, there was no point getting up until 8.30, shower, then watch Will & Grace while eating breakfast. I showered, Will & Grace is on in the background, but Gallows - Grey Britain is overpowering it, currently listening to Misery, I've never been a fan of this kind of music, but I've always made an exception Gallows, and this album is pretty fucking impressive.

Ohhh, stop complaining and clawing at my ankles, I'll tell you why I was in a good mood, and still am. I went to the cinema on Saturday and I watched Coraline, I didn't want to, but it was in 3D, so I thought I'd give it a shot, seeing as we missed Drag Me To Hell, yeah, I said we, by we I mean Julia & I, I think I've told you about her before? I'm pretty sure I have, if only once. But yeah, I wanted to see Drag Me To Hell, but she was like 30 minutes late, sucker. We also missed Star Trek, so I was pretty much heartbroken about not being able to see that either, but it's okay 'cause Coraline was actually alright. Anyway, you're probably not interested about my choice of film, so I'll tell you something that you will be interested in; her. I've got one huge problem, she's 15, which makes her almost 3 years younger than me, everyone finds it weird and creepy, but me... and her? I think. I was talking to Ste last night about how my nan was 17 when she met my Granddad, and he was like 22 or something. Admittedly that was in like the late 40's but times haven't really changed, we've just advanced. There's 13 year olds going out with people who're 20, so I'm sure a 3 year gap isn't that bad... It's not, is it? No, I don't think it is. Yeah, anyway, she's sososo nice, and such a pretty fucker, my Mum asked who she was before I saw her, and I just told her that she's a really nice girl, that's all I've said about her really, 'cause I don't exactly know much about her, apart from the fact she's a slight geek, has a killer smile, and really cute, like extremely cute, not as cute as Juno though, don't get it twisted. Oh and there's another problem, I think I might like her more than she likes me, which is weird, I know I fall fast & hard, but not normally this quick, over someone I hardly know, uhhh. I don't know.

I'm gonna get some breakfast in me before I venture some college, adios fuckers.

Oh fuck off.

Big Brother's back, and that's not a good thing. For the millions of people out there who actually enjoy watching the program it's a good thing, but for me it definately isn't. It's fucking stupid, I hate reality TV shows so much, I don't mind them, but nothing aggrovates me more than Big Brother, seriously. First of all, I watch TV, a lot, and the majority of the time when my televisions on, it's on Channel 4, or E4, it won't be anymore though. You know why? 'cause Big Brother's back, yup, this is the primary reason I hate Big Brother, it takes up precious air time and program slots. No more lunch time Scrubs, or Gilmore Girls (yeah, I watch Gilmore Girls and actually enjoy it, bite me), it's most likely to be replaced by live streams of BB, fucking great! A shitty program that has audio missing 90% of the time. Oh, and then theres Friday night television, whenever I'm in on a Friday night, I normally leave Channel 4 on in the background, 'cause it has hilarious shows on, but nope, BB's in town, move aside funny shows, let's all gather on the sofa and watch an awful program that ridicules peoples lives and cuts out most parts to make a certain individual look bad, fuck off. Then that's all you read about in the papers, Big Brother, about some person excessively using swear words, generally being a cunt, getting body bits out on camera, who gets on who, and those who tried to escape, but fail, 'cause they don't have the guts and did it for attention, well, whoever goes on BB does it for attention anyway, that, and to have their 15 minutes of fame, I honestly haven't heard of one person recently who's still known and documented due to BB, apart from Chanelle, or whatever that blonde sluts name was, she has a program on TMF or some shit and it's absolutely wank.

They're just a few reasons that I hate this horrible excuse for a television program. Fuck whoever watches it, yeah, fuck you, Mum.

Oh hot damn, this is my jam.

E3 has actually given me a boner, metaphorically speaking, obviously.

I've never been this excited about video games, but all this new technology is actually getting me really hot under the collar. Here's my hot list of what I've seen from E3 so far, keep in mind it's only like the second day...

• Project Natal (including Lionheads Project Milo)
• Left 4 Dead 2
• Metal Gear Solid: Rising (finally, MGS comes to X360, no Snake though)
• Modern Warfare 2 (yeah, I gave in)
• Splinter Cell: Conviction (it's gone from an espionage game, to a motherfucking bloodbath)
• Assassins Creed II
• Crackdown 2
• APB (been keeping a look out for this since Crackdown came out)
• Alan Wake
• Brutal Legend
• Batman: Arkham Asylum
• Dead Rising 2
• Warriors: Legend of Troy
• Uncharted 2: Among Thieves
• God of War III
  

Mmmm, fuck yeah.

In other news; I got my new PC yesterday, spent 7 hours trying to get everything to work. Mostly everything works now, so I guess I'll have to stick with Windows 7, seeing as it won't let me install Windows XP, fucker.

I'm off to pick up Little Big Planet from my Nan, adios.

It's finally June!

D'ya know what this means kids? It means I get my new fucking computer. Hot damn. I'm not as excited as I was when I actually wanted to take it home, it's worn off on me now, but I can't wait to sell this and get a bit of cash in my pocket.

Did I tell you that I swapped my Xbox 360 with Jack for his PS3? No? Oh, well now you know. I caught him in town finding out how much it would be if he sold his PS3 to a store, and found out he's getting ripped off, so I made a proposition. I've wanted to buy a PS3 for ages, I just didn't have the money, reason why I went job hunting the other day, handed in 21 CV's, bet I don't get 1 call back haha.

Last night Mum ordered Little Big Planet and Uncharted for me, LBP was only £10! Deal of the fucking century.

That's all I've gotta say I guessss. Bye for now.